Repaying with a blessing
by Christina Manna
At church tonight I felt an extreme connecting point with something Pastor Pete Wilson said: “when someone hurts you repay them with a blessing.” This simple statement really struck a chord with me as it directly relates to something I am going through right now. Refer to my previous post about my last boyfriend/asshole/emotionally-baggaged douchebag to understand. Now, there have been many times in my life when I felt someone has hurt me, but no hurt has ever come as such a surprise than with this person. It was a hurt that didn’t go away for quite some time and will probably always be with me. Out of everything in this “relationship” I regret how I reacted to this hurt the most. Naturally, I wanted to make him feel the pain that I felt. I used malicious words and even flirted with his very best friend. Anything I could do to get back at him I did. I remember one night he said “Christina, we are just the same” and I immediately realized I didn’t at all want to be like him. Sure, he did some pretty awful things but by me getting back at him I was no different. Fighting fire with fire can never lead to a good outcome, everyone just ends up burned. So instead, I wish I would have repaid him with a blessing. The words I would say have and will always be true no matter how neglectant (madeupword) I am to admit it. So regardless or not of if he will ever hear them I will affirm them right now. To my asshole- I want you to be happy and I truly hope you find whatever you are looking for.